orry Elizabeth....
I couldnt drop by so often....
I'm going to be really really reallllllly busy until the end of this month
And even during vacation, I have to study for TOEFL exam, probably learn Japanese, do violin and prepare for next year's courses since I'm begining to take college subjects next year TT^TT
I'm really really really really sorry
Oh yeah and I did miss you a lot
Much more than all the stars in the universe!
You dont have to requite my love Elizabeth because even if you do, I will always love you voluntarily

merged: 05-16-2008 ~ 10:22pm
Elizabeth.......
Aaaahh!
I just dont know anymore
What exactly is going on..... I'm just so fed up with everything.....
I cant even think straight these days.......
I dont like myself for always making excuses.....
I truly do want to spend more time with you... but my mind is always so preocupied by something stupid....
Oh Elizabeth..... and I.... decided
I decided that I am going to japan for college
I'll probably be studying Japanese for a year or something in korea while serving in the military or something..... I dont know yet but I really do hope to go to Japan and my parents allowed it
Now I just need to study hard and somehow prepare the money.......
But for right now... I cant really get any inspiration to do anything......
Anyway..... how was your day Elizabeth?

hmm.... how long are you going to be 8 years old?

hey little girl
how r u?
it been a while....
be sure to drop by
take care

Sorry Elizabeth....
I'm still not myself....
lately I've turned a bit weird....
But I'll come back soon... I hope
Till then would you wait for me?

merged: 04-20-2008 ~ 09:00pm
Elizabeth... I am not staying long this time either
I've changed a lot while I was gone
I dont know why but Ive become even more apathetic for some reason
I am finding it hard to feel anything
Even when I watch a sad anime, I dont really feel sad
Or when I am suppose to be happy... I dont really feel anything
I feel that I have lost most of my sensibility for some reason
But... I'm trying my best to keep my feeling of love for you
So dont say silly things and please wait for me
Sorry Elizabeth

merged: 04-22-2008 ~ 09:26pm

Quote by 95ElizabethI posted, edited and deleted this post so many times! More than 10! What should I say...? Umm... Most of the posts were long so I deleted them again and again and I'll just get to the point... You don't have to come online and you don't have to try so hard to love me... It's okay.... Woah... Short post.... This was so long at first... Okay don't wanna take up your time! Bye! Hope you'll feel better soon ^_^

Elizabeth sorry
I cannot stay long once again
Im trying to drop by at least for a short while though
Umm it's okay even if it's long Elizabeth
Although I may not reply to everything, I'll read it
I'm not trying that hard Elizabeth
Because you just make me love you even when I'm feeling down
I havent changed a lot but I suppose I am changing little by little
I am scared that this will last long.....
It's really.... scary and painful not being able to really stir up any emotion
I feel like I am somebody else... or I feel that I am not alive from time to time.....
Anyway.... I hope you are safe.... and feeling well
See you soon Elizabeth

merged: 04-28-2008 ~ 10:03pm

Quote by 95Elizabeth

.... I'm sure not feeling yourself is a normal thing... I never feel myself.... But the reason I don't feel myself is probably different from yours but I don't feel myself cause I lie a lot... And you can lie to yourself... Sometimes you lie so much you think it's real... I guess I tell myself after that, that it was all a lie but lies become real when you lie for a long time... God gives... And he takes ^_^ God can't be perfect... God won't be perfect... God isn't perfect... If you asked him if you should die for someone... If god said yes, it would be foolish won't it? Because if you die for someone... That person you died for is going to live in misery for the rest of his/her life... And the people who love you would be miserable, pitiful and sad... But if god said no that would be foolish too because you're being selfish to let that person die and only care about yourself... But you can't say that either... Nothing is right or wrong.. The devil isn't bad... God isn't good... I don't believe in such things... Humans were the ones who make right and wrong... Humans made time.... What's 1am and what's 3pm is made by humans... And the definition of right and wrong were made by humans too... I don't know if I'm right or wrong, we make our own right and wrong... Everyone thinks differently... There's a thing as alike but there isn't the same... I'm making no sense! Eeek!
Isn't scary and painful an emotion? haha! You're really cute you know that? I just feel like pinching your cheeks!

but you know elizabeth
I never felt that way ever before.... it was one of the most painful experience for me
Now I'm feeling better now
A lie cant become real. It'll stay a lie
And as I said before, there is a difference between saying something false and hiding information
God is perfect Elizabeth. We are the ones who are not
We always argue validity and rectitude but God already knows
And God already died for us
Once and for all
You are right on that there is no absolute by human standards
But there is a definite right and wrong
Why do you think people always argue about something if it's right or wrong?
Or why do you think people believe there is a supernatural being if it's nonsense?
Everyone does think alike. And because people cannot agree on one thing, there is an argument of right and wrong.
If a law was to be unanimously justified, every single human must testify it is right
Not everything in the world can be rationalized but concepts such as numbers and time are only sentimental
By saying it's 8pm, you can get the idea it's probably dark outside
Of course nature will not tell us what time it is but by setting some sort of standards, we can get a glimpse

Anyways I missed you Elizabeth
My computer was weird for a while so I could not log in
Well I would rather say it's more like an impulsive feeling than emotion.....
Hey no pinching! If you pinch me, you leave me with no other choice but to pinch you back

Oya oya Eli-chan is being panicky.Chill out ne.I'm trying to find time nowadays,hmmm don't know why I'm chasing it.Why did I bother about it anyway.....
Not being cute and nice anymore huh?Are you sure or are you having a fever*touch forehead*Waaah...you're ill.
You should rest once in awhile,don't care so much about the things around you.Live at your own pace.
Live the way you like it to be.
If others don't agree..then tsk they're idiots.

Eli-chan! long time no chat! xD

merged: 04-08-2008 ~ 01:58pm

Quote by 95ElizabethLove your new avatar and sig ^_^

I love yours =D

Quote by 95Elizabeth
....Life is getting boring.... I wouldn't mind dying right now actually... Live to wake up... Wake up to live... live to sleep... Sleep to live... Live to see tomorrow.... See tomorrow to live... And live to die... How boring...

Its boring by the day.Nah don't kill yourself just yet my dear Eli-chan,something bound to happen sooner or later.As always.
Thats the cycle of basic human life.How you live through it is by your choice,your actions,your rule.
So Eli-chan do as you like,life is waiting.Have fun and smile.

merged: 04-06-2008 ~ 08:28pm
WAAAAH!My life is sooo packed that I never had the chance to talk to my dear little imoto.Alot of things happened,death of friends and huge project involving my band.
Eli-chan,hows your life?Still falling down again
Anyway,if you have any problems you can talk to me.
Life is short...especially when friends are first to go and leave.

Eli-chan......
I cant stay for long so I'll reply ASAP
School started today and we already have projects and exams tomorrow........
Aaahhhh! Cant wait for summer break......
Please stay safe Elizabeth......
And always remember that I love you

Quote by 95Elizabeth

TT^TT Oniichan.... You're back... Yay! You're not blind! ^_^
You really wrote the lyrics for me and oneechan! Aww! Oniichan's so nice! ....B-But... I always fall... I hit my head on the wall today... Owwiee.... Oniichan... Kiss my forehead... It hurts there... Ugguu.... Can I put the lyrics on my page too...? Ugguu....

Yup.I am not blind and those lyrics are for you.
Nice ka?...my other self just destroyed some paesants..baka..
*kiss forehead*there there is that better?*hugs*extra comfort.
Do as you please my dear imoto.

MERGED Just now aruu

Quote by 95Elizabeth
Yay! Oniichan is the best! ^_^ Oniichan destroyed some low life? What did they do this time? But hey I wouldn't blame you if you killed them for just being alive

Haha me best ka?Arigatou ne Eli-chan.I didn't kill them,only made them miserable.Its fun to watch them grovel on the ground.I couldn't ask for a better entertainment...oh...ahh...gomen gomen...thats Misuki talking,my other side.Misuki been trying to take over ever since I left the hospital.
Kowai..his only goal is not to let me die thats why he's mean and evil...

Eli-chan not online

merged: 03-17-2008 ~ 05:20pm
Eli-chan........

merged: 03-19-2008 ~ 05:57pm
Elizabeth..... please come online
I really really miss you

merged: 03-19-2008 ~ 10:05pm
Eli-chan.......
I might have a hard time coming online
Somebody is coming to visit our house for a week or so.........
And I have homework @_@
Anyway......
I really miss you......
Hope I can hear from you soon
Love you

merged: 03-20-2008 ~ 12:06am

Quote by 95Elizabeth

YOU STUPID BOY! HOW DARE YOU BETRAY ME LIKE THAT! *pulls Ju's ear* FIRST YOU ABANDON ME NOW YOU BETRAY ME?!?!
You have strawberries for brains and mashed avocado for memories now!
BUSY?!?! BUSY?!?! I have to make a poster the size of a wall about some stupid satellite! I have to write a poem about how to be a water bottle! I have to make some stupid jingle for a bread! Some stupid powerpoint for a dog! And some stupid reflection about sausage! AHHHHH! I have to write a song about some god damn tree! I have to draw some stupid earth! I have to survey this dumb school! I have to do a zillion stupid other things! But then again... Hey I'm a genius without Ian as my rival now! But still! I have to write about my thoughts for a reflection! AND RIGHT NOW I'M THINKING OF TRYING TO DANCE WITH 4 INCH HIGH-HEELS! Oh... Reminds me.... I cut my hair.... I highlighted it purple.... I went for more piercings and I'm tempted to pierce some other awkward part of my body... Ooo! My belly button or my lip?! I have mastered dancing in 3 inch high heels! Yay! And I can back flip with 3 inch high heels! Sorry I haven't been online for a while.... Too busy dressing up like an emo and punk.... it was a dare... I have to be emo for the rest of the year....
Don't think about anything when I'm walking....? See.... You should have told me that earlier cause I hit the lockers while reading....
:sweat: Cruel world....? Aren't I already in it.... 2-3 years and I'll be 14... yay... Next year I'm 13... yay.... This year I'm turning 12....
Well I just want to look more mature.... I can be mature whenever I want to..... Just don't wanna.... Depends on my mood.... Well.... if it's how much I know(Nnn... Not as in how much the wise man knows.... that's just old...) then I guess I'm pretty mature.... I watched a few episodes of school days XP Though I found it pretty boring and perverted so I didn't watch all of it.... And I watch a lot of shows that say parental guidance but it's not much.... Just killing.... Seeing people get chopped in half or whatever.... Not much.... Pretty boring.... Nana was boring and perverted too but I just like Olivia's singing.... Olivia sang as Reira.... I swear more than usual now.... Because I made up with Kane and Aiko and Aiko's still swearing a lot... And now the swear words are stuck in my mind again.... Someone carved the f word on the classroom wall.... I can swear in 7 languages..... I can swear in Swedish, english, chinese, cantonese, indian, japanese and malay... I don't think that's something to really be proud of... But yeah... I can swear in Swedish cause I have a classmate that I use as a personal swedish insulter so I can insult someone without letting them know what I'm saying.... English cause my friends swear.... Chinese cause well.... My cousins swear a lot.... Cantonese cause my grandma, uncles and aunts swear... Indian cause a classmate of mine swears in indian all the time.... Japanese cause I tend to listen to songs with swear words in them.... Most of the songs with swear words are easier for me to dance to.... Malay cause my two best friends speak malay and their always swearing at each other in malaya... I know how to swear in some other languages too but I forgot....
I dislike shopping.... I only shop when I have to.... And when I want to.... You should highlight your hair brown and spike it up like aaron..... Or something....
Apple computers aren't great... I have one and it's useless... Since most things are programed to only be compatible to windows so I can't download them....
Right now.... praying would be the last thing I'd ever do..... Right now I feel more like killing god than praying to god....

Eli-chan~!~!
I missed you soooooo much
You might not believe me but I always thought about you everyday
All I can do is always apologize......
I never betrayed you Elizabeth
You're always my number one.........

You are a lot more talented than I am Elizabeth
And a lot more diligent......
I admire you for that.......

Cant you dance with some other shoes?

I see...... So how short is your hair now?
And no piercing Elizabeth
Never ever ever ever ever
Well...... I would be glad if you didnt.....

But stop wearing high heels
I just saw a documentary on high heels and they arent good!

I see....... so do you like wearing emo punk thingymabob?

And you shouldnt do anything that bothers you either while you are walking or taking any other motion

Well.... that's true.... but the world only gets more vile and horrible
Wow... I cant believe that you're already turning 12 this september.....
I dont remember anything...... from my sophomore year....
It feels like time goes faster and faster as I get older....
It feels like I only met you few weeks ago.......
You're already turning teenager in a year and a half TT^TT

Look more mature?....... I dont really understand why but... okay......

You shouldnt watch those kind of animes Elizabeth
Yes..... After I finished watching it I thought it was a waste of time as well
I just watched it just to finish the series since I started watching it.....
But every single episode.... made my blood boil and I wanted to kill Makoto every single second I was watching School Days
Good thing he died in the end.....
Well it's not only the violence Elizabeth
There are phychologic effects.... whether you find those impulsive or not
Like..... drugs....... well maybe not the best comparison but let's just skip that one

Elizabeth.... I know it's hard to not swear.... especially these days when the world is so corrupt and dirty.......
But please try not to..... especially when you're with younger kids..... actually kids your age...... or under
I can swear in Chinese too.......
They always teach you swear words first

I dont really like shopping either
Umm I dont know who Aaron is but I dont think I'll do that
I just want to leave my hair plain and simple.....
I dont really care much for fashion or hair style.....
Sorry...... I dont really like flashy things or things that stand out..... at least not on me

Oh come on Elizabeth....
It's very simple
Well then... you can say like.......
umm..... I dont know.......
But you can think God as your friend and talk freely to him....

Oh by the way..... can you listen to one of my favorite songs?
I downloaded it recently and I really like her voice......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lRJfbrBaLdI

I have another song that I want you to listen to but it seems it's not on youtube.......

Take care Elizabeth.... I wont be online often starting tomorrow
I love you
I really do

merged: 03-21-2008 ~ 11:15pm

Quote by 95Elizabeth

..... .... Ba.... ka.... Stu... pid... sha... gua... How do you say stupid in korean....?
Of course I'm more talented.... I get talents in exchange for my sanity.... Pretty much....
Sometimes I don't even dance with shoes and I get blisters... Oww....
How short is my hair....? I guess... About shoulder length...? Now my hair style is it starts out straight then it starts to become slight waves when it reaches slightly below my eyes, then it becomes waves when it reaches my lips then it becomes slight curls when it reaches my neck and when it gets to my shoulder it's really curly... Hehe... And I have purple highlights in my hair now....
Piercings are.... Well... If I don't pierce... I stab So I prefer pain that still makes me pretty rather than pain that just gives me more scars than I already have....
I know high heels aren't good but I feel awkward when I wear flat shoes....
Emo punck stuff...? yeah... I guess I do.... I like mini skirts.... And shorts... I hate anything that goes below my knee.... Like.... We don't dress to cover... Well... Yeah we do... But Long skirts and pants look weird on me... And I like belts... Shiny.... They match my earrings... And I like ties..... So I can just choke myself whenever I need to.... Haha.... And I like stockings..... I don't know why... Just do... I don't like shirts that hang loose though..... It makes me look weird.... Anyway... Since I'm no where close to fat and I pretty much have figure so tight things look good on me... And I wear a lot of jewelry.... Nnn... Because I want to I guess.... Anyway.... When I dress like that people mistaken me for a teenager since I look punk and I'm taller now... And... Umm... It makes me happy...? Sorta....
What's with the tears....? I'm glad I'm becoming a teenager soon cause then I get to be taller..... And don't have to be one of does kids anymore... Though.... Everyone says I look older than 11.... I'm taller than most 11 year olds.... And.... I dress like some suicidal freak.... For some reason makes people think I'm older than I am.... And because I'm not plum and.... Umm.... Not as flat...? o_O I don't know.... I just don't look elevenish... If that's a word...
I shouldn't watch does kind of animes....? Oh please..... All the 11 year olds and up in my class watch shows that need parental guidance and it's 18+.... And I'm pretty kidish compared to most of them.... Like.... Aiko reads perverted mangas.... Kai and Sora kiss when the teacher's sleeping... haha... Which is so annoying since their sitting right behind me.... Also.... Kane paints her nails in class..... Some of the boys carved the sh word on the wall and it was carved so the teacher had to hide it with a painting... NNnn..... Kids aren't that angelic anymore are they...? And I'm seriously in no mood to be a goody goody.... I'm stubborn like my parents... Suicidal like my mom.... Selfish like my dad... Hot tempered like my mom... Cold hearted like none of them.... Harsh like none of them..... I'm emo and punk like none of them... I like it when people are hurt like none of them..... I take pain as a form of 'entertainment' like none of them.... Sometimes I wonder if I even am their child.... But there's one thing that tells me I am.... My father, mother and me lie.... I was brought up being thought to never trust and always lie because my mother said if I didn't everyone would hate me.... My mother only told me sad stories and she clouded my mind with the "how to kill yourself" book because she thought that if I heard all the cruelty in this world I would be happy of my life but she was oh so wrong.... I was thought to never speak of my family and always lie about it when I do.... I was told to never show my emotions and cry or hate or love because if I did that I would be a failure.... I can't tell the truth.... I know you ask me to not care about what others think and all that but the fact is I can't... Lying has just because an everyday thing for me now.... I lie oh so much I even learnt how to lie to myself and now I've just lost control of my brain and I don't know what's real anymore....
Swearing isn't a habit for me.... I control when I swear.... I swear because I want to.... Not because I need to or because I'm angry... i swear just because either I swear or I take it out of someone or I try to kill myself again and this pathetic cell I'm living in is to scared to jump so I just try my best to make my own life a living hell so this dumb cell would give up.... Oh yeah... Like my new avatar and sig and what it says?
I rather be a devil worshipper than ever... ever... ever talk to that damn god who just brought me into the world for his own bitchy amusement... I am sick and tired of being his little toy in the nursery for him to destroy in the end... I rather kill myself than ever... ever say a god damn word to god... I am in a really bad mood and right now I just want to jump off this cliff and say good bye....
It's a pretty song.... Oh... Speaking of songs.... My voice and the fact that I want to be a singer is the only thing holding me back from my suicide attempts.... You used to be one of the reasons I'm here but then.... It's a foolish thing to care about a human that's going to say sayonara soon enough....

merged: 03-20-2008 ~ 08:53pm
Oh yeah... By the way... If you wanna know who's aaron... Here's a picture of him http://p-images.veoh.com/image.out?imageId=user-ArronYanROCKS17.jpg&version=4

Stupid in Korean?...... it's babo.....
You are born talented Elizabeth.... and you are very gifted in a lot of ways
Do you like dancing?.....

Hmm I see.... that's still long
I got a haircut too.... a week ago...
Is your hair originally that way?

No Elizabeth.....
Why must you always hurt yourself?
I never understand why...

Well one day you're going to regret wearing high heels Elizabeth......
I feel fine wearing flat shoes
Id feel weird wearing high heels since I see women stumble every few steps

Well umm.... okay...
What you wear is your choice.... as long as it doesnt hurt you or..... something.....
I dont understand that either
Why would anybody want to be a teenager?
I'm glad that I only have like.... 3 or 4 more years until I escape from teenagehood......
But then again..... I hate being an adult just as much.......
I guess I'm going to hate myself for the rest of my life.....
Being a teenager doesnt mean that you're going to grow taller you know
You probably will but there are more horrifying side effects
So much drama and agony...... oh the wretched fiend.... of teenagehood
Why must you devor my hope and spit it out.....

I would love to be a kid....... Forever and ever
What was that called..... Nevereverland? or something?
Heh? Plum?..... I like plums.... they are purple and they taste nice....
Although the huge seed is way too annoying
Oh and peach... I loved peach since I was young
I wonder why so many fruits are so round..... Makes me want to roll them and play with them like a ball.......
Tangerine! I luv that too

Dont mind others Elizabeth
Just because other kids your age are drinking and smoking or having sex doesnt mean that you should the same!
I guess children changed....... generations pass down and a big culture shock..... and all that
Are you all that Elizabeth?
You are just you.... not because of your parents but because of yourself.....
And I always thought you were a kind person..... and that's because you're nobody else but yourself

You've been through a lot Elizabeth
I might not fully understand but I know that you have........
I dont know how much pain you have suffered but I know that you have been fighting and struggling inside.....
I must say that I dont really like what your signature and avatar says..... Makes me feel sad......
And I dont like sad anymore...... I dont want to be sad... or depressed or bitter to the world......

Elizabeth....... Elizabeth......
I can accept everything Elizabeth
I can accept how you dress, how you look, how you talk, what you do, what you think......
But it hurts me a lot....... unbearably to know that you should hate God so much.....
I've hated him too...... I hated him so much that I thought the same way....
That I'd rather die and go to hell than to love such a putrid God.....
But I was wrong..... I never knew who God was......
I'm sure that you dont either Elizabeth.....

I am rather glad Elizabeth......
Of course...... I wanted you to like me..... but I didnt want you to like me too much......
After all.... we are all going to be gone one day......
You know... I still think I can give my life for you
But the only person I love more than you is God.......
I cant help it Elizabeth...... I wouldnt give you up for any human....... but I would only give you up for God......
But.... at least while I am alive..... I dont want to let you go......
I dont want to say goodbye to you.....
I dont know how much longer you will feel that you need me but I wont leave you for anything in the world

That's Aaron?..... I dont really like that kind of hair....
Seems all bushy and hot......
I like my hair plain and simple
Not too long or not too short........

E...li...za..beth-chaaaaan a..so.bi mashou

merged: 03-16-2008 ~ 04:55pm
Nitey Nite Butterflies.
Lyrics:Hajime

As usual the pretty shiny moon crafted an image
In the clear shallow lake surrounded by cold air
You sat there alone staring,thinking why are they all gone..

For simple questions that you asked
Not all can easily be answered
You began to ask why..
But really I don't know everything
So you have to ask yourself..
In your heart there's always that answer

You walked slowly towards the lake being careful not to stumble over
Place that clumsiness aside then you can go find them
All the pretty butterflies are all waiting for you to play together
While I wait here for your return so don't forget to smile

Taking slow steps by the side is the right thing to do, just take your time
Falling down hurting yourself is what I wouldn't want to see
As usual the pretty shiny moon crafted an image
In the clear shallow lake surrounded by cold nights air
You sat there alone staring,thinking why are they all gone..

Don't be afraid to cry out loud
Its a natural thing to do..
I know the pain you're going through
The pain of being left behind..
So I decided to give you my hand
To lead the way so that you won't fall.

You walked slowly towards the lake being careful not to stumble over
Place that clumsiness aside then you can go find them
All the pretty butterflies are all waiting for you to play together
While I wait here for your return so don't forget to smile

Taking slow steps by the side is the right thing to do, just take your time
Falling down hurting yourself is what I wouldn't want to see
As usual the pretty shiny moon crafted an image
In the clear shallow lake surrounded by cold nights air
You sat there alone staring,thinking why are they all gone..

Now that we are nearly there,look up ahead
At the all the flying fuzzy colours
Judging from your face
I know that you're watching in awe

Standing by the side is the right thing to do, just keep that smile
Falling down hurting yourself is what I wouldn't want to see
As usual the pretty little you crafted an image
In the clear shallow lake surrounded by warm emotions
You stood there listening to their whispers of goodnights

p.s:I wrote this song for you.I also wrote for oneechan,its on her page.

Quote by 95Elizabeth

I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ABANDONED ME FOR SO MANY DAYS! YOU IDIOT!
Baka! *hits ju's head with a metal pole* Never even heard Ave Maria on violin! You're an idiot! You have mashed potato for brains and scrambled eggs for memories! Hmpf!
Sleeping early... Nnnn.... Oh yeah! Talking about sleeping! I've been sick for 3 days... 39.5 centigrade fever(It's torture!) and I also have a cold(I can't even breathe!) and I also have a cough(If I cough again I'll be tempted to stab my throat!) and I also have a sore throat(It even hurts when I talk! I feel so mute! I blame you!) Nnn... I hate being sick and I can't even talk! KAHHH! It's all your fault! Because! because! because... I said so! Hmpf!
When I'm moving I usually think "1 step... 2 step... 3 step.... 4 step... 5 step... 6 step... Oww.... I hit the wall.... Nnn... Ju-chan you idiot... I blame you..." yep! That's usually what I'm thinking about when I'm walking!
Oh... I sung nice...? Nnn... I don't believe you... Didn't I sound like I was going to sneeze? o_O I must have since I was nearly gonna sneeze when I was recording konoyo no Uta and I was trying to kill a fly when I was recording.... I must have sounded really awkward right...? I sounded more mature? o_O Is that a good thing....? Maybe I just sounded more mature because I'm older now....? But I won't really consider myself older.... But now I'm almost 5 feet! I feel so tiny! But still taller than I was... But still tiny! I'm so small! *screams and cries*
What are you buying? Saving your money for... A laptop? I'm 11 and I have an apple laptop... A car? My dad would just buy me a car..... A horse? Why would anyone need a horse... A monkey? Nnn... Yeah sure... A monkey... A dress? Uh.... For your future wife maybe...? But I will never let you marry you idiot! Pity the poor girl who must marry you! A duck? I think even a poor man could afford a duck... Some manga book? Gosh... Anyone has enough money for that... Umm... Let me guess! You're saving your money for shoes?! But a don't think any guy in the right mind would care about a bunch of shoes...

Eli-chama~
I missed you
Sorry.......... I am really busy these days.....
I know that's not really a good excuse but...... I just was..... Sorry Elizabeth
I'm going to be a lot more busier next year so I might barely come online
It's break for me now......
March break.... or Easter break......

How are you now Elizabeth?
I was sick for a week as well
Had a terrible cold and a slight fever
I dont know why but I still have that cold....... It's not going away.......

I blame myself as well.......
I'd do what I could if I was there but....... I feel so useless these days.........

You're funny Elizabeth
But you really shouldnt think about me when you're walking
Or anything else that hinders your concentration

Sneeze? I didnt think so.....
Maybe I just didnt notice but I never thought you were going to sneeze there
You do a lot of things when you're singing

Mature?.... I dont know....
You decide whether it's good or not
Elizabeth older?
TT^TT You're all grown up Elizabeth TT^TT
Now you must face the cruel world
You're still tall Elizabeth
We're only 8 inches apart......
And you still have a lot of time to grow when my growth spurt seems to have ceased
Your physical attribute doesnt make you an adult Elizabeth....
It's what's inside you that makes you an adult
If you have a pure heart of a child even when you're old...... you're still a child in your heart
And....... vice versa I guess.... although it's hard to think the other way around

Hahaha no Elizabeth
We dont have that kinda money
I'm grateful that my father actually bought a new computer after our old one crashed
Although the computer isnt that great, it's still quite suiting for me
Everybody seems to have an apple computer these days
Of course I dont understand what's so great about them
Ummmm.............
Yeah....... I pity the woman that I'll marry as well....... if I ever even get married
Guys like shoes as well you know
Although...... not as much as girls of course
I'm interested in basketball shoes and certain tennis shoes
Although I dont really care for it as much as others
It's just nice to feed my eyes on the shiny shoes sometimes since I dont have the money

What I'm trying to buy............ it's a secret!
I need to save about....... 3 more month without using a single penny
Then I'll be able to buy it!
And I'll be all happy for a while then I would regret buying it and using so much money on it

Eli-chan........
Please pray for me......
My heart is troubled....... and my sanity is constantly being tested.......
I love you