Eli-chaaaaaaaaaaanzzzzzz
I sent you an email on yahoo
Reply back
Loooovvvvvvveeeeee you really really much
merged: 07-06-2008 ~ 01:29am
Quote by 95ElizabethI didn't see any
mail from you TT^TT Maybe you typed in the wrong adress...
elizabeth_shantelle@yahoo.com
Or maybe I'm just blind o_O
Really? I'm sure that I did send it to elizabeth_shantelle@yahoo.com.....
Hmm..... Aah..... Hmm...
I dont know
Maybe it went to spam?
My email is rozenkreuzorden@yahoo.com
Hi!
I saw you as one of orpheuz friends! Nice userpage! (I mean, mine is a tot mess
><)
Im adding you to my tomodachies list! (friend list) You seem an interesting
person.
A question: Are you EMO? (lol, *jokes* hehe a joke only )
From what I see here, you like lollies, don't you? I do like them too!
See ya!
merged: 06-25-2008 ~ 10:40pm
Ah, also can you join this club: ? (lollies paradise)
so see ya!
Eli-chan
I'm not going to be online for quite a while starting today
I'm moving..... and will be going to Korea very soon
So many things to do in Korea..... need to attend Japanese classes and find out
more about colleges.... and I'll have to stay most of my time there in the
library studying
Anyway take care of yourself..... stay safe, dont eat too much (if your parents
force you), dont sleep too late, dont kill your friends, dont forget to turn off
the gas after you play with fire and most importantly dont forget to pray for me
I love you and stay safe *throws kisses at you... although I dont know if you
like chocolate.....)
hey Eli-chan, dunno if you stull remember me, but here is a Link,
http:\\vote.minitokyo.net\ you Might wanna check out. That's what we are trying
to replace Anime Rivals with. Just come and say hi to the Gang. people would be
thrilled to see you again...especially Orpheuz...oh yeah.. did I mention?
Orpheuz is Back, and here to stay.
merged: 06-22-2008 ~ 01:13am
I love your UserPage though...
Hello Elizabeth. I am back from my exile, finaly after a year. I am sorry that I
have not informed you any time sooner, as I am still catching up with everything
that I missed.
You know, I remembered our conversations from a year before. About our ages,
about how many people would give us. Not so long ago I had a chance to taste
this so-called 'adult's world. And you know what? Theese so-called 'adults' are
'irritating little brats'. They are plotting against each other at all times,
talking behind their backs, forming cross frinedships, that in fact can't be
called friendship. Going into adulthood is like trading away your innocence...
But only on your own wish. I did not wished for that, so I am planning to remain
as I was forever and even longer.
So. How it has been for you through this year? I had been through all kinds of
situtaion, most of them including my kinsmen and unpleasant. I hope it was
better for you.
merged: 06-21-2008 ~ 07:59am
Then don't bother. I mean, why bother to be interested with all those thick
headed people. I somehow always managed to live through schools, no matter how
idiotic were people and classes. I know that not everyone can, but give it a
try, ignore them. They will grow bored after some time .
And my life might not be bright lately, but I am doing what I can to swith the
electricity back on . And
I hope life will get better sometime soon for you too.
Quote by 95Elizabeth
It has nothing to do with my age... this is why I always wanted to grow up...
"Kids don't know anything" "Kids wouldn't understand"
"Kids don't know the real feeling of pain" "Kids should be seen
not heard" "Kids are rude" "Kids are so childish"
"Kids have it the easy way" "Kids shouldn't talk back"
"Kids don't have the right to decide" "Kids are so immature"
Stupid humans... Sick of all that crap...
Just going up to my mother and asking her to be nicer...? Do you think that
would work...?
So is it wrong to want my husband to give me all his attention...? I don't care
how I'm going to make people love me... Unlike you... To be a husband isn't
something that lasts forever... It's not like I'm gonna cry like a sissy boy if
my kids or husbands leave me... In fact I won't even be surprised if my husband
and I divorce after a week of being married... So
what...? It's not like I wasn't ready for it... No one in this world is going to
love you forever.... Actually... I don't think I care about the children... I
don't think I want any... I won't even adopt... I think bringing a child into
this world is really cruel... I wouldn't want my kids to have my genes of
wanting my life to be done and over with..
Are you sure those are phobias...
It becomes hard to breathe and it's so bad that sometimes you faint... Usually
to the point to stab yourself or whatever... These are my phobias, the main ones
are atelophobia and eremaphobia though ^_^
Achluophobia- Fear of darkness
Acrophobia- Fear of heights
Arsonphobia- Fear of fire
Atelophobia- Fear of imperfection
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure
Chronophobia- Fear of time
Demonophobia- Fear of demons
Eisoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors or of seeing oneself in a mirror
Eremophobia- Fear of loneliness
Enissophobia- Fear of criticism
Gerontophobia- Fear of growing old
Hadephobia- Fear of hell
Metathesiophobia- Fear of changes
Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight
You dont really need to understand do you?
It just makes it more painful.... adults are stupid
They think they are all knowing when they're as stupid as a donkey's buttocks
You dont need to understand Elizabeth....
The world would be great without adults.....
Of course it would
She's still your mother
No it's not wrong..... and I think the husbands (or wives) should love their
spouses more than any other people of hetero gender
But u see.... there are children, friends and other family members
And other people need love too
Of course it's not the same kind of love as the one you have for your husband or
wife but you know like for your children, it's also different
Like for my family's case, my parents dont really (seem to) love each other but
they love me (i think.... they might not but i think they do kinda).... and I
think they would have divorced like 15 years ago if it wasnt for me... well it's
not because it was me but children are what also hold famliies together
Well people these days are shallow and dumb as a rock
I would never leave my wife and I would love no other woman besides my wife (if
I get married.... and you know.... love love and not just friendly love.....
unless by woman, if it also includes my daughter.... if i'd have a
daughter......)
If my wife dies earlier... I dont want to get remarried.... unless my children
really really need a mother (pretending that I would have already had
children)
Otherwise I would just live by myself
If my wife were to leave me...... I dont know what i'd do......
I expect my wife to love me and only me (love meaning between a man and a woman)
and I expect myself to only love my wife wholeheartedly until the day I die
If I'm going to love somebody else, why bother getting married?
I want children!
I think that's cruel too.... so that's why I want to adopt children.....
also...... I think.... that'd be weird..... having children with my wife
You are afraid of the darkness? Do you sleep with lights on then?
Well fear of deomons or hell is really unexpected
I think there's nothing to be afraid of them
Although.... you may not have experienced that yet.....
Fear of gaining weight? Hmm for some reason women seem to be very sensitive
about that.... hope you dont become anorexic though
Some of those tings, I have too although I dont really understand seeing in the
mirror thing
My strongest phobias are
Entomophobia-fear of insects
Thalassophobia-fear of sea (actually it's deep water)
Agoraphobia-fear of open spaces or being in crowded, public places (although
it's more of extreme discomfort rather than fear)
Scotomaphobia-fear of being blind (I was always afraid of going blind since I
read Helen Keller
)
Nyctohylophobia-fear of dark wooded areas or of forests at night
Aeroacrophobia-fear of open high places
Politicophobia-Fear or abnormal dislike of politicians (ive always had a
passionate hatred for politics)
Asymmetriphobia- Fear of asymmetrical things (actually this isnt fear either but
I really feel uncomfortable when I see something asymmetrical)
Taphephobia Taphophobia- Fear of being buried alive or of cemeteries (I always
had nightmares of being buried alive TT^TT)
Cleithrophobia or Cleisiophobia- Fear of being locked in an enclosed place....
(this one's really scary)
Pediophobia- Fear of dolls (once, I saw this horror movie about dolls, and after
that, I've become scared of dolls... some of them..... the ones that resemble
human figure)
Aphenphosmphobia- Fear of being touched.(this is also more like discomfort)
Dentophobia- Fear of dentists (I had a lot of dentist appointments when I was
young TT^TT)
Woah.... I thought you were busy... I can probably get a scholarship... And I
KNOW Ian's gonna get a scholarship...
He was the overall academic award winner in year six in his first year
transferring to my school...
Stupid Ian...
Cold and unforgiving world....? I don't seem to be panicking... I just want to
get my life over and done with.... If I was kidnapped I'm not going to waste my
energy escaping.... I don't really care... Life isn't that fun anyway...
Kane-chan went to a british school, she has this really cool british accent!
I'm only good at music, art, drama, history, design technology, HSIE, english
and science.... Ian's better at maths than I am... He
got the maths award.... And umm... I'm not great at sports either...
Of course I can swim!
My leg was caught in a HOLE with a bunch of ROCKS! I COULDN'T move!
Unfair that I cried in front of Ian...?
Unfair for you? Or me?
Ian isn't my friend So
who cares.... He deserves sand.... He pulled my hair! Insulted me too many times
to count! Went into my room at camp and locked me out of my own cabin! He's
sooooo perverted! He's probably ray's apprentice or something...
What are kids learning these days? The usual.... When someone calls you a female
dog it means you're a bitch.... I know what all the bad words mean! Oh I
remember Rhys chose the word intercourse for his spelling practice and he had no
idea what it meant! That was priceless! He's so stupid! And Ian was going
"Who's your girlfriend...? A monkey? Or a rock?" That was just
hilarious...
Pokemon and dragonball...?
Well in the present time... We play truth or dare.... Girls talk about who's
cute and who's not.... Boys talk about terminators? o_O And they usually sneak
into girls cabins.... I had to throw five shoes at 7 boys for coming into my
room already on the first day.... haha... How... Uh... Hilarious? o_O
Of course I wouldn't let them do anything perverted to Queen Elizabeth
But.... They renamed me Virginia....
I really do pity myself right now.... I'm sure 9% of the year sixes aren't
virgins! I'm serious....
No... Golden carriage isn't perverted... THIS is perverted... "__ and __
Sittin' in a tree! Doin' somethin' they shouldn't be! Starts with an s and ends
with an x! Oh my god they're havin' __" Uh... Not gonna say that word!
Yes.... I bet you're thinking "What are kids learning these days?!"
Most of the year sixes are 13! yay! Clap clap clap! I can be considered 12 I
guess.... Since I'll be 12 soon ^_^ Yay me!
It's no biggy just sleeping with them especially since you're so far away from
eachother! I went to my boy classmate's room and they sure are no where close to
near And did you know 90% of the boys in year 6 don't care about
being gay or not, they're perverted to everyone! And they treat me like a boy so
they don't give me much trouble... But then I think they just don't care wether
I'm a girl or not....
how insulting.... We were under a roof and we had a door and a window...
I would never sleep in a sleeping bag...
Did you know that 75% of the year 6 girls in my school have dated at least 3
guys and kissed them all... Wow... What are kids learning these days?
merged: 05-18-2008 ~ 12:39am
By the way.... I made a new video ^_^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKm5fx8beoo
Do not ask me why it always has something to do with love!
Cause I don't know why either! And all the boys in my class somehow got my phone
number! Eeek!
Yes I am still busy as ever
Finals are very close and I still have tons of projects due soon and I feel like
im gonna die of exhaustion sooner or later
But I cant believe my sophomore year of high school is basically over....
I dont even remember anything.... it feels like time goes without me.....
Anyway.... I just wanted to spend more time with you..... I felt that I was gone
for a while... and I was lonely without you and stuff.... and I just missed you
and..... kaaaaahh! what are you making me say?
You are better than Ian in a lot of ways Elizabeth.... academics isnt what
people are evaluated with
Silly silly Elizabeth... I used to think that too
Just get life done with and die or something.....
But now I'm really happy that i got to know you.... my life isnt always that
great.... well I'm usually down and gloomy and all that but I still have things
that make my life worth living
British accent is cool? I thought that German accent was cool.... I mean not for
English but when they're speaking German
I want to learn German
But my father says I shouldnt because nobody really uses German except for the
German people.....
Those things are all things that I wish I was good at! (except science.... i
hate science and math)
What's HSIE?
I thought you played the...... umm... netball or something.....
What was it again?
Umm...... I dont know! It's just unfair!
O-O.... Elizabeth so mean!
Hahahas maybe he has a secret secret cruch on you Elizabeth
Elizabeth..... I never knew that you had gone so far.....
You're like an Elizabeth I never knew......
Umm...... ahh..... Uuuguu.....
If I was there i would have totally scolded you right now
But you'd probably kick me and swear at me saying something like "Go away
you homo" and I would be like totally go pyscho and commit murder and drink
beer until I puked and have a hangover and stuff.....
Kids dont like pokemon anymore?!?! 0_o
I used to cry for hours when the first pokemon series ended......
I remember sitting in the room as I saw the ending credits telling me that was
the last pokemon episode
I was so sad and torn apart... I was heartbroken that i couldnt see pikachu and
charizard anymore.... oh and bulbasaur.... he was my favorite.
Psshha! I talk about that too but kids these days arent cute at all
I tell them not to play with the cutter knife and they're like "We're old
enough to do whatever we want you fag".....
They're totally not cute anymore
But my cousins are just soooooooo adorable
It's a good thing they're not into those things yet.... well they're not old
enough but it's still a good thing
I'll probably see them in Japan when I go to college
And they'd be in elementary And
I'll take them to amusement parks and zoos when I get my pay
It's so cool to think about the future... but so depressing as well
Good good Elizabeth
Oh i love that soda! But I think it's called virgin and not virginia...... the
orange flavor's really good though
Wait... how do people have sex on trees? That's just insane and
retarded
No i wuz thinking kids these days dont know how to spell things correctly....
Actually kids these days are just crazy
I'm not gonna drink or smoke or do any of those stupid things
And people will think I'm so lame and not cool and all that
But why should I care? I'm gonna protect my children from the impurities of the
world....
Not gonna let them go all secular on me
What are parents doing anyway? Watching porno with their children and smoking
infront of them or something?
Let me see..... 6th grade.... lets see I remember I was 8 years old when I was
in 3rd grade.... So I was 11 in 6th grade? 0_o
Let me recalculate... I'm 15 now.... Im finishing 10th grade..... so I guess I
was 11 in 6th grade as well Elizabeth.....
I cant believe you're growing up so fast TT-TT
Wait a second..... I need to give you a birthday present.... but last year's
gift wasnt good enough
I need to make something better and fancier and that costs more..... but I dont
know anything....
AAAAAAAHHHHHHH! *panic mode*
Wait... 11..... Hmm for some reason I was keep thinking you were 12 until
now.....
Gay people arent that bad...... but they're kinda creepy.... I see way too many
gay people and transexuals around here
It just seems wrong.... but they're still people.... and as long as they dont
touch me! I am fine
But I wouldnt want my children to be gay though
Sleeping bags are cool! It feels like a cacoon and it's warm and cozy and you
feel like a sushi
Psshh girls are so weird
What do they see in guys anyway? They just date guys to be popular and stuff
You have a great voice Elizabeth
But I think you need more confidence... Otherwise you have great taste in music
and tone
Oh and I remember the cat mask and all that.... although I only read like 2
volumes.....
I'm gonna ask.... why Elizabeth? Why does it alway have to do with heterosexual
love?
I guess you're quite popular Elizabeth
I wanna grow up! It's so stupid! I only tend to mention my age to you since you
wouldn't laugh at me or anything... Cause when I keep quiet about being 11
people think I'm in junior high And
I kinda like having all the older boys melt in my presence
Aww! How cute you are! You're like a cuter version of Natsume! (I LOVE
NATSUME!)
I'm barely ever gloomy and dull! That
kinda depends who I'm talking to.... I'm bubbly and weird around the girls, I'm
dark and moody around the boys I know well, I'm sweet around my relatives and
I'm "inappropriate" around boys I'm not close with ^_^ Yeah I know...
Weird.... Lets see... I'd probably marry a guy I just met for a day... Since I
don't really go for people I'm close with cause it makes me depressed to have to
see someone I like having me as his wife...
That's why I tend to dump my boyfriends after a day or two, don't like getting
attached to people....
HSIE stands for Human Society In it's Environment ^_^ It's where we learn about
the evil outside world ^_^ Our teachers haven't talked to us about sex and stuff
yet but they don't really need to since like 90% of us already know these
stuff.... I first learnt about it when I was... Umm... 4? When I asked my
mother what was sex she gave me an encyclopedia...
then I asked her what was rape and she gave me the encyclopedia again... I
asked her what perverted is and she gave me an encyclopedia... So since then I
just didn't ask her and asked other people instead... I remember when i was 8 or
9 or 10 I asked a boy what intercourse meant! Who
did I ask...? I think it was Ray or Ysaac... I don't remember... one of them
anyway... how stupid of me... Then when I was 9 or 10 I asked Ray what a
french kiss was.... And
he just said "Oh... You wanna try or something?" He's so perverted...
like... seriously.... I remember when it was library time, Dira, Kira, Aiko,
Kane, Laura and me were sitting at the far corner of the library behind the
shelves where only we sat and.... Laura was talking about the time when her
kindergardener teacher was teaching her about sex...
And when she was 5 her boy cousin let her watch porn... How... Perverted...
And how the teacher taught her about sex... It was just... So... Wrong...
And... Our parents are so blind and deaf... They thought we couldn't hear
them... Ugh... So wrong... And Aiko, Kane, Dira, Kira and Laura took turns to
read this stupid book about sex... So wrong... Of course I didn't read it
Imagine if Ian were to see me reading it! He would say something evil...
Anyway... i'm not interested...
When I said virginia.... I didn't mean soda... I
mean they nicknamed me the name "Virginia"
Right... Kids are twisted nowadays...
It's not like I'm popular at my school or anything.... I'm just well known for
my... Attitude? ^_^ The glasses really make me look crappy... but then again
some people like the whole glasses girl things
It would be really wrong to have sex on a tree....
Who made up that song... I don't know... But... It rhymes so i guess I won't
complain....
We don't date guys to be popular and stuff... Don't mock me... You're starting
to get as irritating as Ray... So
same goes for guys... Do you date girls to be popular and stuff?
Eli-chan!
Ahh.... life is so stressing.... I took an exam today and I have another one
tomorrow
I really really hate long exams..... i had to write 2 hours non-stop! I didnt
even have time to think and I dont even remember what I wrote TT^TT
Well anyway.... I just dont get you Elizabeth
Why would you want to become all old and...... old?
That's totally not cool ya noe? Just kidding but.... personally I just dont
wanna become old
I wanna be.... around your age..... or younger
I dont have fun anymore...... being old is just..... so dull
You just get to the point where you accept everything that there isnt anything
left
Nothing is interesting or fun anymore because you know everything when you're
old
Well not everything but the world is more.... obvious
Everything becomes evident
Heh? So you like older boys?
Natsume? Isnt that the weird annoying little boy?
Masaka...... Could it be that Eli-chan is actually a shotacon?!
What is bubbly anyway?....
Aahh.... I see.... That's quite.... hmm.... I do that too
I'm different around whoever I'm with and the situation depends as well
Well... you sure arent romantic Elizabeth
And that's just stupid
I'd never marry someone who I met for a day and I would never fall in love at
first sight
That's like.... impossible.... something merely triggered by a sudden aesthetic
impulse
So that's what it means... that sounds cool
Although I would prefer to take ecology classes
I learned about it when I was around your age as well Elizabeth.....
in 6th grade... and I was like....... People do this to have babies?! And I wuz
like totally disgusted
Maybe that's why I want to adopt my children?..... Hahahax
Well... nothing to do with that... just want to adopt my children that's all
I dont really want children of my own as for now
Elizabeth..... I am appalled! What has this dirty stinking world done to you!
Me is very sad TT__TT
Tell the truth Elizabeth... You are interested arent you?!
Aaahhh you perv! Get away >o< Dont touch me!
Girls shouldnt like that kinda stuff....
If they do...... the world would be..... totally perverted....
There are enough perverted boys in this stinking sthinkin world
Oh I see..... Then I must be Viriginio since I'm a guy
I'm sure you are Elizabeth.... but I hope you arent famous for being perverted
O yeah..... you wore glasses.....
Ah.... glasses!...... heh?..... People like girls with glasses?
Never heard of that one although I wanted to try glasses on..... but they said
my eyes were fine when I'm staring mindlessly for over 10 hours a day into a
monitor that discharges who knows how much static?
But glasses are so bothersome.... from what I've seen
They always fall off when you're playing sports, when you're taking a shower in
the locker room, you need to put it somewhere safe, it presses the nose bone so
your nose might look weird after a while, you always need to clean them, it
might brake if you put it anywhere, it hurts your eyes and you cant see without
them.... Wow..... how do people live with glasses/contact lenses?
I feel soooooo lucky..... but my eyes will burn out sooner or later.....
sadly
Yes..... and that is totally illogical.... trees have feelings too you know!
And tree huggers will kill you for that!
........ Aaahhh! You hate me! TT__TT
No no.... from my knowledge of the male kind, guys just date girls because they
like their...... ehem..... body features and want to do perverted stuff
I dont think guys will date for popularity.... Aaah... I hate being a guy....
but I wouldnt want to be a girl and look at those sick perverted guys... and I
wouldnt want to be a homo or bi either....
since I dont like either
I scored a 100% in maths... 90% in music... 100% in art... 96% in drama... 90%
in chinese... 85% in sports... 100% in HSIE and English... 100% in computers...
100% in history... 90% in science... Uh... Malay...
36%.... Don't be mean.... I
scored A in everything else! Stupid! I nearly got straight As! TT^TT
Knowledge isn't gained in time... You could be 10 and know more about the world
than someone that's 78 year old...
Lately it's getting harder to act... I'm really sick of being happy.... I
noticed I'm getting prettier and prettier ^_^ Lots of people said I'm much more
beautiful than when I was younger... So i guess if I grew older I would be
prettier... If I'm prettier than everyone would like me.... And if everyone
likes me I could probably become a singer... Looks matter.... Even if you say it
doesn't, in reality it does.... Anyway I promised myself I'll die when I'm 30
Imagine how old and wrinkly I'll look when I'm 30! I'll cry waterfalls on the
year 2027 on the 5th day of september! That'll be the day when I become an old
hag and everyone will hate me!
Well I don't really care if they're older or not as long as they're not younger
than me! I wouldn't marry anyone shorter than me, 1 day younger than me or
anyone who looks younger than they are! That just makes me feel old... I
don't care if you're 3, 5, 7, 12 or even 20 years older than me! I just don't
like anyone younger than me! Natsume isn't annoying!
He's cute! Shotacon....
Uh... no...
Bubbly is like... Cheerful? Something like that ^_^ I'm unromantic...?
Love isn't all about romance? I
don't believe in love at first sight either And
I never said I was going to love my future husband...
I learnt about it when I was 5... I
knew long ago, wwayyyy before I was in middle school... Unlike you I don't get
disgusted very easily so I didn't say anything.... It's not THAT disgusting....
Wow... Sometimes I think I'm more mature than you are
Uh.... I think you're jumping to conclusions/....
What makes you think I'm perverted...? I'm not THAT perverted that I actually
watch porn or anything...
But then I'm not THAT innocent that I think it's disgusting.... Eh.... I'm not
THAT sweet that I ignore it and never talk about that subject... I'm not THAT
wrong that I kiss every random guy that walks pass me... I'm not THAT normal
that i just think "whatever" what it comes to the topic... But I guess
I am perverted enough to not think it's gross ^_^ So... Yeah... More towards the
perverted side.... But I'm not going to rape you or anything... geez... And...
no... I'm not famous for being perverted....
Amy and Lauren are though... They are wwayyyy popular...
Glasses aren't that bothersome after you get used to them... It is kinda
bothersome sometimes I guess... I'm gonna get contacts next year.... I'll change
my hairstyle too... Some boys think the glasses thing is cute since I look sweet
and innocent and easy-to-get when I just sit there quietly...
They jus ASSUME I'm easy-to-get just because I wear glasses! Hah! BUT THEY ARE
SO WRONG! WWAYYY WRONG! I'm famous for being really good at slapping people
yay!
Don't insult the female race you perverted freak!
Well umm.... first of all..... this is a bit weird.... because I wrote a bit
more but it seems it got cut off.....
well.... whatever.....
Malay?.... it's okay Elizabeth..... but how do you live in Malaysia if you dont
know Malay?
Or do people there use more English?
I got straight A's last semester but this semester might be hard
My Spanish is always on the border....
But I would never score 100 on any of those Elizabeth so you must be really
smart
Well true.... it does not rely solely on time but more to a person's ability
On the other hand, I believe wisdom does take time to obtain
I think you should stop acting if you dont want to as well
That is usually the case. People tend to get prettier or handsomer (if that's a
word) as they get older but people also tend to grow uglier on the inside as
they get older
I've seen that in myself as well.....
I'm not going to deny it.. because that is reality
Looks do matter... superficiality isnt only sentimental like they say in dramas
and movies
If you take care of yourself now, you wont look old until you're in the mid
40s
My aunts look very young but they're in the early and mid 50's
My father looks young for his age as well
Some people think he's in his 30's when he's almost 50 now
So stop saying depressing things Elizabeth
I thought you wanted to be older
well opposite for me
I usually dont like older people...... and sometimes I dont like younger
people
Some kids are very annoing (like Natsume) and some kids are very scary (like my
cousins... who are still cute and all)
But I still think younger people are more fun....
Oh I see... I was keep wondering what bubbly was
Love is too complex..... if love was a program, it would be like 8102942
bzillion terrabytes
I'll say this again... You sure aren't romantic
Well to tell the truth, I dont care much for romance either
I prefer a cozy kind of love
Not too fanzy or moody like romantic love but like..... sharing a blanket,
drinking tea and watching the same program on tv kind of love
Just because you can accept it does not mean you're more mature
Well first.... you use a lot of perverted words
Second, you often tell me these weird perverted stories
Third, you seem to know a lot more of these sexual things than I do
And Finally, you're a girl..... and girls mature more quickly (both physically
and mentally) therefore you might be perverted..... somehow
Just watching porn aint the only way to determine if you're perverted or not
You need to get inside your head and analyze what you are thinking ELizabeth
And Elizabeth.... I dont like people who say those kind of things so
lightly
Well you can misplace them, you can brake them by accidentally stepping on them,
they might fall off when you're playing sports, if you get hit where you're
wearing your glasses it might hurt, it pressures your nose bone so your nose
might look weird after a while, you alway need to clean them, and it gets
scratched so easily
Contacts are such a bother as well.....
I'm not mocking anybody Elizabeth.... Especially not you
merged: 05-25-2008 ~ 08:39am
Quote by 95Elizabeth
.... I'm not going to stay in Malaysia... I'll go to england for
college(Unfortunately Ian's going to England too! I will have to spend the rest
of my school college, university life with him!
LIFE IS SO CRUEL! He's going to a music school too cause he has a scholarship
for violin! NNOOooooo! Stupid! Crappy! Evil! Stupid! I HATE HIM! Not to mention
if I decide to take the path of music I might have to be stuck with him for the
rest of my life! I'm so going to Korea or Japan for college!
My dad gets mistaken for a model all the time! My mother is so artistic! My
sister is a genius in science! My brother has the brain of Abraham Lincoln! My
2nd brother can type so fast! And I'm just crappy TT^TT
Yeah I'm not romantic... I
admit... Cozy romance kinda makes me feel... Awkward so.... No... Not that
type...
......
You don't like people who say those things so lightly? Than why don't you just
ignore me...? I change my glasses all the time since I always break them...
You already know where you're going to go
For me.... I was a bit too late choosing
Haha maybe you two were meant to be with each other
You still have a lot of time Elizabeth
Think it over and choose the best way
Dont mind Ian and choose your own way and make it straight
Well I'm definitely NOOOOT going to Korea for college
I never wanted to....
You noe... I might be going to Japan this year so I'm kinda excited
I'll have to look for colleges and see if there are any that offers english
lectures.....
The future really is intimidating when you dont know anything about it
If I.... fail to go to Japan, my other options are Hong Kong, Singapore,
Malaysia and even England
I really dont know where to go but for now, my aim is Japan
But I hope we can meet one day
A male model? That's really cool
I always admired male models
Aahh I love artistic people
But.... I hate science
Abraham Licoln?......
It's okay even if you type slow
I type quite slow as well
Really? I always dreamed of having a family where we all sat around the kotatsu
and eating cookies and watching tv and doing things together
It's only a dream.... but hopefully it will come true
"Love" these days are.... so twisted.....
One day, "oh you're good looking"
Let's have ***
You're terrible! Let's break up *after having like 3 children*
The world is like..... trash these days I cant believe the stories that I
hear.....
Elizabeth.... the reason why I tell you that is because..... I care about you
and I dont like you saying those things at all
I dont want you saying those things because you'll get used to saying those
things and I dont like it
If it's some stranger who keeps saying perverted thing, I wouldnt care a bit
But because I care about you, I dont like you saying those things
Why would I ignore you of all people?
After all, I know how much you want attention Elizabeth
That must really be.... uncomfortable...
Do you know your sight?
mine is around 0.8 on both eyes.... not that good.... but it's okay
JJUUUU---CCHHHAAANN~~~~~! I want to die... I'm
getting less and less attention nowadays... I'm getting less and less social!
Usually everyone wants to be my friend cause I'm friendly but nowadays I've just
been quiet(More quiet than usual anyway) and I snap at my friends a lot! usually
when people say I love Ian and that we look like a married couple I would just
tease them a bit but lately I got so angry that I kicked a chair at one of my
friends, luckily they dodged and it hit the wall and broke into pieces! That was
how hard I kicked it!
If it really hit them they might die! I lately I everything I say and do doesn't
come out right! And I felt lonely(Well more lonely than usual) And I don't know
why but I have no idea what I'm doing around boys! I'm usually so good with them
but recently I have no idea what I'm doing! KYYYAA! Ju-chan knows me so well! I
LOVE YOU!
Do NOT go to malaysia for college...
The schools here are evil! They hit you all the time! Kyyyaa! I still have a
scar on my hand from when my chinese teacher hit me when I was in year 3! And I
got a scar on my leg too when my mom hit me when I was in year 4! TT^TT Ju-chan~
I think I'm gonna die now
I dreamt of having a family with a lot of cute little kids that could never grow
old! KKYYYAAA! KIDDIES ARE SOOOO CCUUTTTEE~~~ And my husband... As long as he's
only nice to ME, talks to only ME, looks at only ME, listens to ME, loves only
ME and his life revolves around ME! BUAHAHHAA! Selfish... haha... I'm attention
crazed! But you can't blame me cause I have eremophobia! ^_^ Don't know what
that is? Look up in the internet! And I
have claustrophobia too! Actually... Now that I think about it I have quite a
lot of phobias... So
unfair... So you have to stay with me forever and ever cause if ya don't I'll
cry! It's bad to make a girl cry! Who cares if I'm selfish...
Okay! Bye bye! Kisses and hugs! Love ya! xoxoxo ^_^
You really like being the center of attention doncha Elizabeth?
Dont die though
You'll always have my attention
I think you have entered puberty ......
that's not a good thing though
You get on an emotional and psychologic rollercoaster and it messes with your
brain and all
Adolescence is no fun.... It's like fluster of multiple feelings
I love you too
Malaysia cant be that bad
They used to beat up elementary kids in korea although nowadays it gets reported
on the internet and get arrested and all that
Hold on tight Elizabeth
Life isnt always what you want....
And tell your mother to stop hitting you
Never Ever Land?!?!?!
Kids are cute
But it would also be cool to see them grow up
Although it would be sad when they leave you
Well.... Elizabeth..... spouses are suppose to only love 1 person but I dont
think the world is suppose to revolve around the spouse
Although spouses are only suppose to love each other and nobody else
And umm Elizabeth..... what about the children? Dont they love too?
Eremophobia..... fear of solitude? I'm a bit claustrophobic as well
And I have thalassophobia, entomophobia, ichthyophobia, agoraphobia,
scotomaphobia, chemophobia, nyctohylophobia, topophobia, aeroacrophobia,
politicophobia, stenophobia, hylophobia, slight agoraphobia, taphephobia,
cleithrophobia, pediophobia, ephebiphobia, hypengyophobia, aphenphosmphobia,
dentophobia, asymmetriphobia teratophobia, xerophobia and etc
I never knew I had so many phobias @_@
Okay... If you want me to
And I want to stay with as well
Japan? It's more expensive there you know.... A lot of stuff is more expensive
there... I have the money to go to whatever college I want but I prefer one in
England cause they have better music schools ^_^
Anyway.... Japanese is too hard to learn.... But then not really since the
japanese kanji looks like chinese characters...
Hows my day? Well I just came back from camp yesterday.... I got a few bruises
on my hands and legs cause when we were swimming.... I was walking on sand
underwater and then there was a deep hole with rocks.... I couldn't breathe for
a few seconds because I was underwater and then when I got back up I was crying
and Ian asked me if I was okay and I kicked sand into his mouth It's
his fault! There was so much sarcasm in his voice! And also... My cabin in camp
last year was in the boys section right beside the boys cause the girls rooms
didn't have anymore space.... And this year again my room is beside the boys and
is in the boys section... I'm
seriously unlucky.... And one of them always manages to climb into my room
through the window! But at least I got to steal Ian's key so okay But
they always think I can't hear them and talk about girls every single day but
it's not like the room is soundproof.... Me, Kane, Recca and Kira were the only
girls there.... The rest of the girls were far far away... Kane, Recca and Kira
usually aren't there though since they prefer feeding monkeys and goats....
So I'm usually hanging out in one of the boys' cabins... And I just learnt
another version of "__ and __ Sittin' in a tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G First comes
love then comes marriage then comes a baby in a golden carriage" The new
version is much more perverted... But it rhymes a lot more! We were singing it
on the bus on the way back, the teachers there didn't care
though
Kyaaa! Elizabeth!
I miiiiiissssssseeeeeddddd u!
Yeah..... it is expensive..... My family has a hard time just paying for my high
school
So I really need a scholarship..... but I'm probably not academicly approved
enough for one.
I probably have to get a part time job while going to college or something
I will stay in korea for a year to study Japanese though...
I dont know if i'll enter korean college first and study a year of Japanese then
transfer to japan or just study japanese privately then go to japan.....
I still havent completely decided yet
I thought through a lot...... my future looks so dark and scary right now
In 2 years I'll be out from this protected environment and into the cold and
unforgiving world TT^TT
England I see.... My father suggested that I consider England as well
But I didnt really like British colleges...... I heard that they focus too much
on tradition and sentimental stuff
And for some reason England doesnt sound too interesting for me.....
England is probably a more easier option for college entrance for me but England
is still expensive for me and I dont even know what to do if I were to go to a
British college
I see that you are following the path of music
I know that you'll do great things wherever you go and whatever you do Elizabeth
Well kanji is actually chinese letters but the meanings are probably
different
I heard that japanese is hard as well
Japanese use a lot more kanji than korea but I heard that the grammar is almost
identical to korean and the expressions are very similar to korean and i heard
that it's almost similar to korean so if you just learn the letters and the
words, it's quite easy to learn japanese if you know korean.
Huh?!
You cried infront of Ian? That's so unfair
Anyway it's good that you are not hurt bad
That's why i never go swimming..... so much chance that I'll end up dying
Eli-chan doesnt know how to swim?.....
I dont really know how to swim... I had swimming class for few years in my
school but I still cant swim for some reason.....
I see other guys floating very well but I just sink right away
They say you need more body fat if you want to float better but the thin and fit
guys float very well and I'm always the only one floating
You shouldnt have kicked sand on him though
Once I did that to my friend... I dont remember why I did that but I felt really
really sorry afterwards....
He apologized to me even though I was the one who threw the sand......
I miss him..... well we're still keeping contact so it's okay although he seems
busy as well these days....
Are camps always so unorganized?
Really? you should kick him in the kidney and tell him to get out
Hmm.... what are kids learning these days?....
Society has turned so violent and it has ethically declined so much
When I was young, we used to play with pokemon and dragonball little missy
*strokes long beard*
The boys were always playing war games or trying to win over pokemon cards and
girls were always....... I dont know what they were doing because the only girls
I knew back then were my friend's sisters..... and they played pokemon with
us....... hey! where is my kane you little punks?
Aah my spine.... must be getting too old for this walking thing.....
When I went to camp, we slept with the girls once
We went camping to the beach, it was raining and the only rainproof place was
very small so we drew a line and the boys slept on one side and the girls on the
other side
My sleeping bag almost got wet there TT^TT
And the disgusting sea creatures!
Hmm.... they always talk about girls i see.....
Beh... that's natural I suppose....... but guys talk more about perverted stuffs
because they're..... you know..... They're just guys
You should just understand it cant be helped but dont let them get perverted
with you Elizabeth
Tell them to buzz off cuz you dont need to hear about those stuff...
I went camping (sort of) last year and the guys there never talked about
girls.....
They talked about spiritual stuff...... maybe it's because our school is
christian
You know there was a student that was possessed by a spirit last year at camp
I didnt see it though... I was in my cabin rolling around in my bed
Golden carriage is perverted?.....
Adults these days are so indifferent and self centered......
But I'm going to be a very good father and care for my children
I heard that adoption is getting easier..... but they still probably wont let me
adopt without a spouse
Then I need to get a high paying job..... but writers dont get paid a lot!
And they have to spend a load of time writing and thinking of what to write so I
wont have much time to spend with my kids TT^TT
NNOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUWWWWWWWUUUUOOOOOOXXXXX
I AM YO GRANDFATHER IN LAW LUKE SKYWALKER!
Wow I'm hyper today......
Must I give up my dreams and pass it on to my children?......
I learned in an anime that even though if you give up your dreams...... your
children are worth giving up your dreams for.....
Have you seen that anime as well? I'm not telling you which one though
But I dont really have techniques or skills for other jobs....
The only thing I can do well(sort of) is writing mediocre stories with very bad
vocabulary.... and I can only write in korean......
You're lucky Elizabeth..... you can write well and you can play music, draw....
you can basically do anything well
I used to wish that I was good at art..... or music
Recently I've been listening to pianos and violins and I was sooooo jealous of
those people who played my favorite songs so well on their instruments
I used to want to be a soccer player, lawyer, dentist, baker, cooker or painter
but I realized I was so bad at all those things
Ahhh! Anyway I'll stop talking Elizabeth.... sory you had to read so much (if
you did read it all)
By the way would you mind listening to this? http://youtube.com/watch?v=3CAKPfPMKBo
I found out about a group that plays string instruments including violin, chello
and viola
I like their music
Anyway see you again soon Elizabeth
HELLO ELI-CHAN.....MY TEST ARE FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYY OVER THANK GOODNESS!
OHHHH...NOT JUST YET I HAVE A WEEK OF MORE TEST COMING UP...BUT WHO CARES HOW
HAVE YOU BEEEEENNNNNNN IN SUCHHHHHHH A LONGGGGGG TIMEEEE!.....SORRY I AM NEVER
HERE ANYMORE!
hey..been awhile ne eli-chan.Gomene.I'm moving forward now,again with no aim or
direction but at least I'm maturing.I'm doing everything by myself now so
yeah,its hard.If you need me find me at MSN:keisakuhajime@hotmail.com...see ya
kiddo...
orry Elizabeth....
I couldnt drop by so often....
I'm going to be really really reallllllly busy until the end of this month
And even during vacation, I have to study for TOEFL exam, probably learn
Japanese, do violin and prepare for next year's courses since I'm begining to
take college subjects next year TT^TT
I'm really really really really sorry
Oh yeah and I did miss you a lot
Much more than all the stars in the universe!
You dont have to requite my love Elizabeth because even if you do, I will always
love you voluntarily
merged: 05-16-2008 ~ 10:22pm
Elizabeth.......
Aaaahh!
I just dont know anymore
What exactly is going on..... I'm just so fed up with everything.....
I cant even think straight these days.......
I dont like myself for always making excuses.....
I truly do want to spend more time with you... but my mind is always so
preocupied by something stupid....
Oh Elizabeth..... and I.... decided
I decided that I am going to japan for college
I'll probably be studying Japanese for a year or something in korea while
serving in the military or something..... I dont know yet but I really do hope
to go to Japan and my parents allowed it
Now I just need to study hard and somehow prepare the money.......
But for right now... I cant really get any inspiration to do anything......
Anyway..... how was your day Elizabeth?
Sorry Elizabeth....
I'm still not myself....
lately I've turned a bit weird....
But I'll come back soon... I hope
Till then would you wait for me?
merged: 04-20-2008 ~ 09:00pm
Elizabeth... I am not staying long this time either
I've changed a lot while I was gone
I dont know why but Ive become even more apathetic for some reason
I am finding it hard to feel anything
Even when I watch a sad anime, I dont really feel sad
Or when I am suppose to be happy... I dont really feel anything
I feel that I have lost most of my sensibility for some reason
But... I'm trying my best to keep my feeling of love for you
So dont say silly things and please wait for me
Sorry Elizabeth
merged: 04-22-2008 ~ 09:26pm
Quote by 95ElizabethI posted, edited
and deleted this post so many times!
More than 10! What should I say...? Umm... Most of the posts were long so I
deleted them again and again and I'll just get to the point... You don't have to
come online and you don't have to try so hard to love me... It's okay....
Woah... Short post.... This was so long at first... Okay don't wanna take up
your time! Bye! Hope you'll feel better soon ^_^
Elizabeth sorry
I cannot stay long once again
Im trying to drop by at least for a short while though
Umm it's okay even if it's long Elizabeth
Although I may not reply to everything, I'll read it
I'm not trying that hard Elizabeth
Because you just make me love you even when I'm feeling down
I havent changed a lot but I suppose I am changing little by little
I am scared that this will last long.....
It's really.... scary and painful not being able to really stir up any
emotion
I feel like I am somebody else... or I feel that I am not alive from time to
time.....
Anyway.... I hope you are safe.... and feeling well
See you soon Elizabeth
.... I'm sure not feeling yourself is a normal thing... I never feel myself....
But the reason I don't feel myself is probably different from yours but I don't
feel myself cause I lie a lot... And you can lie to yourself... Sometimes you
lie so much you think it's real... I guess I tell myself after that, that it was
all a lie but lies become real when you lie for a long time... God gives... And
he takes ^_^ God can't be perfect... God won't be perfect... God isn't
perfect... If you asked him if you should die for someone... If god said yes, it
would be foolish won't it? Because if you die for someone... That person you
died for is going to live in misery for the rest of his/her life... And the
people who love you would be miserable, pitiful and sad... But if god said no
that would be foolish too because you're being selfish to let that person die
and only care about yourself... But you can't say that either... Nothing is
right or wrong.. The devil isn't bad... God isn't good... I don't believe in
such things... Humans were the ones who make right and wrong... Humans made
time.... What's 1am and what's 3pm is made by humans... And the definition of
right and wrong were made by humans too... I don't know if I'm right or wrong,
we make our own right and wrong... Everyone thinks differently... There's a
thing as alike but there isn't the same...
I'm making no sense! Eeek!
Isn't scary and painful an emotion? haha! You're
really cute you know that? I just feel like pinching your cheeks!
but you know elizabeth
I never felt that way ever before.... it was one of the most painful experience
for me
Now I'm feeling better now
A lie cant become real. It'll stay a lie
And as I said before, there is a difference between saying something false and
hiding information
God is perfect Elizabeth. We are the ones who are not
We always argue validity and rectitude but God already knows
And God already died for us
Once and for all
You are right on that there is no absolute by human standards
But there is a definite right and wrong
Why do you think people always argue about something if it's right or wrong?
Or why do you think people believe there is a supernatural being if it's
nonsense?
Everyone does think alike. And because people cannot agree on one thing, there
is an argument of right and wrong.
If a law was to be unanimously justified, every single human must testify it is
right
Not everything in the world can be rationalized but concepts such as numbers and
time are only sentimental
By saying it's 8pm, you can get the idea it's probably dark outside
Of course nature will not tell us what time it is but by setting some sort of
standards, we can get a glimpse
Anyways I missed you Elizabeth
My computer was weird for a while so I could not log in
Well I would rather say it's more like an impulsive feeling than emotion.....
Hey no pinching! If you pinch me, you leave me with no other choice but to pinch
you back
Oya oya Eli-chan is being panicky.Chill out ne.I'm trying to find time
nowadays,hmmm don't know why I'm chasing it.Why did I bother about it
anyway.....
Not being cute and nice anymore huh?Are you sure or are you having a fever*touch
forehead*Waaah...you're ill.
You should rest once in awhile,don't care so much about the things around
you.Live at your own pace.
Live the way you like it to be.
If others don't agree..then tsk they're idiots.
Quote by 95Elizabeth
....Life is getting boring.... I wouldn't mind dying right now actually... Live
to wake up... Wake up to live... live to sleep... Sleep to live... Live to see
tomorrow.... See tomorrow to live... And live to die... How boring...
Its boring by the day.Nah don't kill yourself just yet my dear
Eli-chan,something bound to happen sooner or later.As always.
Thats the cycle of basic human life.How you live through it is by your
choice,your actions,your rule.
So Eli-chan do as you like,life is waiting.Have fun and smile.
merged: 04-06-2008 ~ 08:28pm
WAAAAH!My life is sooo packed that I never had the chance to talk to my dear
little imoto.Alot of things happened,death of friends and huge project involving
my band.
Eli-chan,hows your life?Still falling down again
Anyway,if you have any problems you can talk to me.
Life is short...especially when friends are first to go and leave.
Eli-chaaaaaaaaaaanzzzzzz
I sent you an email on yahoo
Reply back
Loooovvvvvvveeeeee you really really much
merged: 07-06-2008 ~ 01:29am
Really? I'm sure that I did send it to elizabeth_shantelle@yahoo.com.....
Hmm..... Aah..... Hmm...
I dont know
Maybe it went to spam?
My email is rozenkreuzorden@yahoo.com
Hi!
) 
I saw you as one of orpheuz friends! Nice userpage! (I mean, mine is a tot mess ><)
Im adding you to my tomodachies list! (friend list) You seem an interesting person.
A question: Are you EMO? (lol, *jokes* hehe a joke only
From what I see here, you like lollies, don't you? I do like them too!
See ya!
merged: 06-25-2008 ~ 10:40pm
? (lollies paradise)
Ah, also can you join this club:
so see ya!
Well Eli-chan, looks like you didn't keep your promise there now did you!
Well in any case, yeah, I was'nt around,and neither was orpheuz. I was busy, and he lost his password...
So, Do come and visit us once in a while..and How have you been all these days that I have not talked to you?
*hugs*
Eli-chan
I'm not going to be online for quite a while starting today
I'm moving..... and will be going to Korea very soon
So many things to do in Korea..... need to attend Japanese classes and find out more about colleges.... and I'll have to stay most of my time there in the library studying
Anyway take care of yourself..... stay safe, dont eat too much (if your parents force you), dont sleep too late, dont kill your friends, dont forget to turn off the gas after you play with fire and most importantly dont forget to pray for me
I love you and stay safe *throws kisses at you... although I dont know if you like chocolate.....)
hey Eli-chan, dunno if you stull remember me, but here is a Link, http:\\vote.minitokyo.net\ you Might wanna check out. That's what we are trying to replace Anime Rivals with. Just come and say hi to the Gang. people would be thrilled to see you again...especially Orpheuz...oh yeah.. did I mention? Orpheuz is Back, and here to stay.
merged: 06-22-2008 ~ 01:13am
I love your UserPage though...
Hello Elizabeth. I am back from my exile, finaly after a year. I am sorry that I have not informed you any time sooner, as I am still catching up with everything that I missed.
You know, I remembered our conversations from a year before. About our ages, about how many people would give us. Not so long ago I had a chance to taste this so-called 'adult's world. And you know what? Theese so-called 'adults' are 'irritating little brats'. They are plotting against each other at all times, talking behind their backs, forming cross frinedships, that in fact can't be called friendship. Going into adulthood is like trading away your innocence... But only on your own wish. I did not wished for that, so I am planning to remain as I was forever and even longer.
So. How it has been for you through this year? I had been through all kinds of situtaion, most of them including my kinsmen and unpleasant. I hope it was better for you.
merged: 06-21-2008 ~ 07:59am
. 
. And
I hope life will get better sometime soon for you too.
Then don't bother. I mean, why bother to be interested with all those thick headed people. I somehow always managed to live through schools, no matter how idiotic were people and classes. I know that not everyone can, but give it a try, ignore them. They will grow bored after some time
And my life might not be bright lately, but I am doing what I can to swith the electricity back on
EEEELiiii-chan!
*pokes you* long time haven't talk to you ^^
hey, elizabeth^^
saw u in vatican's page
may i add?
aaw, u like alice academy too? i like the anime, mikan's voice is nice =)
AMAYACHANNN! xP i wanna continue the rp desho T-T anyway, how r ya? =P
You dont really need to understand do you?
It just makes it more painful.... adults are stupid
They think they are all knowing when they're as stupid as a donkey's buttocks
You dont need to understand Elizabeth....
The world would be great without adults.....
Of course it would
She's still your mother
No it's not wrong..... and I think the husbands (or wives) should love their spouses more than any other people of hetero gender
But u see.... there are children, friends and other family members
And other people need love too
Of course it's not the same kind of love as the one you have for your husband or wife but you know like for your children, it's also different
Like for my family's case, my parents dont really (seem to) love each other but they love me (i think.... they might not but i think they do kinda).... and I think they would have divorced like 15 years ago if it wasnt for me... well it's not because it was me but children are what also hold famliies together
Well people these days are shallow and dumb as a rock
I would never leave my wife and I would love no other woman besides my wife (if I get married.... and you know.... love love and not just friendly love..... unless by woman, if it also includes my daughter.... if i'd have a daughter......)
If my wife dies earlier... I dont want to get remarried.... unless my children really really need a mother (pretending that I would have already had children)
Otherwise I would just live by myself
If my wife were to leave me...... I dont know what i'd do......
I expect my wife to love me and only me (love meaning between a man and a woman) and I expect myself to only love my wife wholeheartedly until the day I die
If I'm going to love somebody else, why bother getting married?
I want children!
I think that's cruel too.... so that's why I want to adopt children..... also...... I think.... that'd be weird..... having children with my wife
You are afraid of the darkness? Do you sleep with lights on then?
)
Well fear of deomons or hell is really unexpected
I think there's nothing to be afraid of them
Although.... you may not have experienced that yet.....
Fear of gaining weight? Hmm for some reason women seem to be very sensitive about that.... hope you dont become anorexic though
Some of those tings, I have too although I dont really understand seeing in the mirror thing
My strongest phobias are
Entomophobia-fear of insects
Thalassophobia-fear of sea (actually it's deep water)
Agoraphobia-fear of open spaces or being in crowded, public places (although it's more of extreme discomfort rather than fear)
Scotomaphobia-fear of being blind (I was always afraid of going blind since I read Helen Keller
Nyctohylophobia-fear of dark wooded areas or of forests at night
Aeroacrophobia-fear of open high places
Politicophobia-Fear or abnormal dislike of politicians (ive always had a passionate hatred for politics)
Asymmetriphobia- Fear of asymmetrical things (actually this isnt fear either but I really feel uncomfortable when I see something asymmetrical)
Taphephobia Taphophobia- Fear of being buried alive or of cemeteries (I always had nightmares of being buried alive TT^TT)
Cleithrophobia or Cleisiophobia- Fear of being locked in an enclosed place.... (this one's really scary)
Pediophobia- Fear of dolls (once, I saw this horror movie about dolls, and after that, I've become scared of dolls... some of them..... the ones that resemble human figure)
Aphenphosmphobia- Fear of being touched.(this is also more like discomfort)
Dentophobia- Fear of dentists (I had a lot of dentist appointments when I was young TT^TT)
WHYYYY WOULD I LEAVE I AM NOT THAT CRAZYYYYY!
Yes I am still busy as ever
Finals are very close and I still have tons of projects due soon and I feel like im gonna die of exhaustion sooner or later
But I cant believe my sophomore year of high school is basically over....
I dont even remember anything.... it feels like time goes without me.....
Anyway.... I just wanted to spend more time with you..... I felt that I was gone for a while... and I was lonely without you and stuff.... and I just missed you and..... kaaaaahh! what are you making me say?
You are better than Ian in a lot of ways Elizabeth.... academics isnt what people are evaluated with
Silly silly Elizabeth... I used to think that too
Just get life done with and die or something.....
But now I'm really happy that i got to know you.... my life isnt always that great.... well I'm usually down and gloomy and all that but I still have things that make my life worth living
British accent is cool? I thought that German accent was cool.... I mean not for English but when they're speaking German
I want to learn German
But my father says I shouldnt because nobody really uses German except for the German people.....
Those things are all things that I wish I was good at! (except science.... i hate science and math)
What's HSIE?
I thought you played the...... umm... netball or something.....
What was it again?
Umm...... I dont know! It's just unfair!
O-O.... Elizabeth so mean!
Hahahas maybe he has a secret secret cruch on you Elizabeth
Elizabeth..... I never knew that you had gone so far.....
You're like an Elizabeth I never knew......
Umm...... ahh..... Uuuguu.....
If I was there i would have totally scolded you right now
But you'd probably kick me and swear at me saying something like "Go away you homo" and I would be like totally go pyscho and commit murder and drink beer until I puked and have a hangover and stuff.....
Kids dont like pokemon anymore?!?! 0_o
And
I'll take them to amusement parks and zoos when I get my pay 
I used to cry for hours when the first pokemon series ended......
I remember sitting in the room as I saw the ending credits telling me that was the last pokemon episode
I was so sad and torn apart... I was heartbroken that i couldnt see pikachu and charizard anymore.... oh and bulbasaur.... he was my favorite.
Psshha! I talk about that too but kids these days arent cute at all
I tell them not to play with the cutter knife and they're like "We're old enough to do whatever we want you fag".....
They're totally not cute anymore
But my cousins are just soooooooo adorable
It's a good thing they're not into those things yet.... well they're not old enough but it's still a good thing
I'll probably see them in Japan when I go to college
And they'd be in elementary
It's so cool to think about the future... but so depressing as well
Good good Elizabeth
Oh i love that soda! But I think it's called virgin and not virginia...... the orange flavor's really good though
Wait... how do people have sex on trees? That's just insane and retarded
No i wuz thinking kids these days dont know how to spell things correctly....
Actually kids these days are just crazy
I'm not gonna drink or smoke or do any of those stupid things
And people will think I'm so lame and not cool and all that
But why should I care? I'm gonna protect my children from the impurities of the world....
Not gonna let them go all secular on me
What are parents doing anyway? Watching porno with their children and smoking infront of them or something?
Let me see..... 6th grade.... lets see I remember I was 8 years old when I was in 3rd grade.... So I was 11 in 6th grade? 0_o
Let me recalculate... I'm 15 now.... Im finishing 10th grade..... so I guess I was 11 in 6th grade as well Elizabeth.....
I cant believe you're growing up so fast TT-TT
Wait a second..... I need to give you a birthday present.... but last year's gift wasnt good enough
I need to make something better and fancier and that costs more..... but I dont know anything....
AAAAAAAHHHHHHH! *panic mode*
Wait... 11..... Hmm for some reason I was keep thinking you were 12 until now.....
Gay people arent that bad...... but they're kinda creepy.... I see way too many gay people and transexuals around here
It just seems wrong.... but they're still people.... and as long as they dont touch me! I am fine
But I wouldnt want my children to be gay though
Sleeping bags are cool! It feels like a cacoon and it's warm and cozy and you feel like a sushi
Psshh girls are so weird
What do they see in guys anyway? They just date guys to be popular and stuff
You have a great voice Elizabeth
But I think you need more confidence... Otherwise you have great taste in music and tone
Oh and I remember the cat mask and all that.... although I only read like 2 volumes.....
I'm gonna ask.... why Elizabeth? Why does it alway have to do with heterosexual love?
I guess you're quite popular Elizabeth
merged: 05-22-2008 ~ 08:42am
Eli-chan!
Ahh.... life is so stressing.... I took an exam today and I have another one tomorrow
I really really hate long exams..... i had to write 2 hours non-stop! I didnt even have time to think and I dont even remember what I wrote TT^TT
Well anyway.... I just dont get you Elizabeth
Why would you want to become all old and...... old?
That's totally not cool ya noe? Just kidding but.... personally I just dont wanna become old
I wanna be.... around your age..... or younger
I dont have fun anymore...... being old is just..... so dull
You just get to the point where you accept everything that there isnt anything left
Nothing is interesting or fun anymore because you know everything when you're old
Well not everything but the world is more.... obvious
Everything becomes evident
Heh? So you like older boys?
Natsume? Isnt that the weird annoying little boy?
Masaka...... Could it be that Eli-chan is actually a shotacon?!
What is bubbly anyway?....
Aahh.... I see.... That's quite.... hmm.... I do that too
I'm different around whoever I'm with and the situation depends as well
Well... you sure arent romantic Elizabeth
And that's just stupid
I'd never marry someone who I met for a day and I would never fall in love at first sight
That's like.... impossible.... something merely triggered by a sudden aesthetic impulse
So that's what it means... that sounds cool
Although I would prefer to take ecology classes
I learned about it when I was around your age as well Elizabeth.....
in 6th grade... and I was like....... People do this to have babies?! And I wuz like totally disgusted
Maybe that's why I want to adopt my children?..... Hahahax
Well... nothing to do with that... just want to adopt my children that's all
I dont really want children of my own as for now
Elizabeth..... I am appalled! What has this dirty stinking world done to you!
Me is very sad TT__TT
Tell the truth Elizabeth... You are interested arent you?!
Aaahhh you perv! Get away >o< Dont touch me!
Girls shouldnt like that kinda stuff....
If they do...... the world would be..... totally perverted....
There are enough perverted boys in this stinking sthinkin world
Oh I see..... Then I must be Viriginio since I'm a guy
I'm sure you are Elizabeth.... but I hope you arent famous for being perverted
O yeah..... you wore glasses.....
Ah.... glasses!...... heh?..... People like girls with glasses?
Never heard of that one although I wanted to try glasses on..... but they said my eyes were fine when I'm staring mindlessly for over 10 hours a day into a monitor that discharges who knows how much static?
But glasses are so bothersome.... from what I've seen
They always fall off when you're playing sports, when you're taking a shower in the locker room, you need to put it somewhere safe, it presses the nose bone so your nose might look weird after a while, you always need to clean them, it might brake if you put it anywhere, it hurts your eyes and you cant see without them.... Wow..... how do people live with glasses/contact lenses?
I feel soooooo lucky..... but my eyes will burn out sooner or later..... sadly
Yes..... and that is totally illogical.... trees have feelings too you know!
And tree huggers will kill you for that!
........ Aaahhh! You hate me! TT__TT
No no.... from my knowledge of the male kind, guys just date girls because they like their...... ehem..... body features and want to do perverted stuff
I dont think guys will date for popularity.... Aaah... I hate being a guy.... but I wouldnt want to be a girl and look at those sick perverted guys... and I wouldnt want to be a homo or bi either....
since I dont like either
O yeah..... you wore glasses.....
merged: 05-24-2008 ~ 12:03pm
Well umm.... first of all..... this is a bit weird.... because I wrote a bit more but it seems it got cut off.....
well.... whatever.....
Malay?.... it's okay Elizabeth..... but how do you live in Malaysia if you dont know Malay?
Or do people there use more English?
I got straight A's last semester but this semester might be hard
My Spanish is always on the border....
But I would never score 100 on any of those Elizabeth so you must be really smart
Well true.... it does not rely solely on time but more to a person's ability
On the other hand, I believe wisdom does take time to obtain
I think you should stop acting if you dont want to as well
That is usually the case. People tend to get prettier or handsomer (if that's a word) as they get older but people also tend to grow uglier on the inside as they get older
I've seen that in myself as well.....
I'm not going to deny it.. because that is reality
Looks do matter... superficiality isnt only sentimental like they say in dramas and movies
If you take care of yourself now, you wont look old until you're in the mid 40s
My aunts look very young but they're in the early and mid 50's
My father looks young for his age as well
Some people think he's in his 30's when he's almost 50 now
So stop saying depressing things Elizabeth
I thought you wanted to be older
well opposite for me
I usually dont like older people...... and sometimes I dont like younger people
Some kids are very annoing (like Natsume) and some kids are very scary (like my cousins... who are still cute and all)
But I still think younger people are more fun....
Oh I see... I was keep wondering what bubbly was
Love is too complex..... if love was a program, it would be like 8102942 bzillion terrabytes
I'll say this again... You sure aren't romantic
Well to tell the truth, I dont care much for romance either
I prefer a cozy kind of love
Not too fanzy or moody like romantic love but like..... sharing a blanket, drinking tea and watching the same program on tv kind of love
Just because you can accept it does not mean you're more mature
Well first.... you use a lot of perverted words
Second, you often tell me these weird perverted stories
Third, you seem to know a lot more of these sexual things than I do
And Finally, you're a girl..... and girls mature more quickly (both physically and mentally) therefore you might be perverted..... somehow
Just watching porn aint the only way to determine if you're perverted or not
You need to get inside your head and analyze what you are thinking ELizabeth
And Elizabeth.... I dont like people who say those kind of things so lightly
Well you can misplace them, you can brake them by accidentally stepping on them, they might fall off when you're playing sports, if you get hit where you're wearing your glasses it might hurt, it pressures your nose bone so your nose might look weird after a while, you alway need to clean them, and it gets scratched so easily
Contacts are such a bother as well.....
I'm not mocking anybody Elizabeth.... Especially not you
merged: 05-25-2008 ~ 08:39am
You already know where you're going to go
For me.... I was a bit too late choosing
Haha maybe you two were meant to be with each other
You still have a lot of time Elizabeth
Think it over and choose the best way
Dont mind Ian and choose your own way and make it straight
Well I'm definitely NOOOOT going to Korea for college
I never wanted to....
You noe... I might be going to Japan this year so I'm kinda excited
I'll have to look for colleges and see if there are any that offers english lectures.....
The future really is intimidating when you dont know anything about it
If I.... fail to go to Japan, my other options are Hong Kong, Singapore, Malaysia and even England
I really dont know where to go but for now, my aim is Japan
But I hope we can meet one day
A male model? That's really cool
I love artistic people 
I always admired male models
Aahh
But.... I hate science
Abraham Licoln?......
It's okay even if you type slow
I type quite slow as well
Really? I always dreamed of having a family where we all sat around the kotatsu and eating cookies and watching tv and doing things together
It's only a dream.... but hopefully it will come true
"Love" these days are.... so twisted.....
One day, "oh you're good looking"
Let's have ***
You're terrible! Let's break up *after having like 3 children*
The world is like..... trash these days I cant believe the stories that I hear.....
Elizabeth.... the reason why I tell you that is because..... I care about you and I dont like you saying those things at all
I dont want you saying those things because you'll get used to saying those things and I dont like it
If it's some stranger who keeps saying perverted thing, I wouldnt care a bit
But because I care about you, I dont like you saying those things
Why would I ignore you of all people?
After all, I know how much you want attention Elizabeth
That must really be.... uncomfortable...
Do you know your sight?
mine is around 0.8 on both eyes.... not that good.... but it's okay
merged: 05-27-2008 ~ 09:06am
You really like being the center of attention doncha Elizabeth?
Dont die though
You'll always have my attention
I think you have entered puberty
You get on an emotional and psychologic rollercoaster and it messes with your brain and all
Adolescence is no fun.... It's like fluster of multiple feelings
I love you too
Malaysia cant be that bad
They used to beat up elementary kids in korea although nowadays it gets reported on the internet and get arrested and all that
Hold on tight Elizabeth
Life isnt always what you want....
And tell your mother to stop hitting you
Never Ever Land?!?!?!
Kids are cute
But it would also be cool to see them grow up
Although it would be sad when they leave you
Well.... Elizabeth..... spouses are suppose to only love 1 person but I dont think the world is suppose to revolve around the spouse
Although spouses are only suppose to love each other and nobody else
And umm Elizabeth..... what about the children? Dont they love too?
Eremophobia..... fear of solitude? I'm a bit claustrophobic as well
And I have thalassophobia, entomophobia, ichthyophobia, agoraphobia, scotomaphobia, chemophobia, nyctohylophobia, topophobia, aeroacrophobia, politicophobia, stenophobia, hylophobia, slight agoraphobia, taphephobia, cleithrophobia, pediophobia, ephebiphobia, hypengyophobia, aphenphosmphobia, dentophobia, asymmetriphobia teratophobia, xerophobia and etc
I never knew I had so many phobias @_@
Okay... If you want me to
And I want to stay with as well
*waves eliii! xD
Kyaaa! Elizabeth!
I miiiiiissssssseeeeeddddd u!
Yeah..... it is expensive..... My family has a hard time just paying for my high school
So I really need a scholarship..... but I'm probably not academicly approved enough for one.
I probably have to get a part time job while going to college or something
I will stay in korea for a year to study Japanese though...
I dont know if i'll enter korean college first and study a year of Japanese then transfer to japan or just study japanese privately then go to japan.....
I still havent completely decided yet
I thought through a lot...... my future looks so dark and scary right now
In 2 years I'll be out from this protected environment and into the cold and unforgiving world TT^TT
England I see.... My father suggested that I consider England as well
But I didnt really like British colleges...... I heard that they focus too much on tradition and sentimental stuff
And for some reason England doesnt sound too interesting for me.....
England is probably a more easier option for college entrance for me but England is still expensive for me and I dont even know what to do if I were to go to a British college
I see that you are following the path of music
I know that you'll do great things wherever you go and whatever you do Elizabeth
Well kanji is actually chinese letters but the meanings are probably different
I heard that japanese is hard as well
Japanese use a lot more kanji than korea but I heard that the grammar is almost identical to korean and the expressions are very similar to korean and i heard that it's almost similar to korean so if you just learn the letters and the words, it's quite easy to learn japanese if you know korean.
Huh?!
You cried infront of Ian? That's so unfair
Anyway it's good that you are not hurt bad
That's why i never go swimming..... so much chance that I'll end up dying
Eli-chan doesnt know how to swim?.....
I dont really know how to swim... I had swimming class for few years in my school but I still cant swim for some reason.....
I see other guys floating very well but I just sink right away
They say you need more body fat if you want to float better but the thin and fit guys float very well and I'm always the only one floating
You shouldnt have kicked sand on him though
Once I did that to my friend... I dont remember why I did that but I felt really really sorry afterwards....
He apologized to me even though I was the one who threw the sand......
I miss him..... well we're still keeping contact so it's okay although he seems busy as well these days....
Are camps always so unorganized?
Really? you should kick him in the kidney and tell him to get out
Hmm.... what are kids learning these days?....
Society has turned so violent and it has ethically declined so much
When I was young, we used to play with pokemon and dragonball little missy *strokes long beard*
The boys were always playing war games or trying to win over pokemon cards and girls were always....... I dont know what they were doing because the only girls I knew back then were my friend's sisters..... and they played pokemon with us....... hey! where is my kane you little punks?
Aah my spine.... must be getting too old for this walking thing.....
When I went to camp, we slept with the girls once
We went camping to the beach, it was raining and the only rainproof place was very small so we drew a line and the boys slept on one side and the girls on the other side
My sleeping bag almost got wet there TT^TT
And the disgusting sea creatures!
Hmm.... they always talk about girls i see.....
Beh... that's natural I suppose....... but guys talk more about perverted stuffs because they're..... you know..... They're just guys
You should just understand it cant be helped but dont let them get perverted with you Elizabeth
Tell them to buzz off cuz you dont need to hear about those stuff...
I went camping (sort of) last year and the guys there never talked about girls.....
They talked about spiritual stuff...... maybe it's because our school is christian
You know there was a student that was possessed by a spirit last year at camp
I didnt see it though... I was in my cabin rolling around in my bed
Golden carriage is perverted?.....
Adults these days are so indifferent and self centered......
But I'm going to be a very good father and care for my children
I heard that adoption is getting easier..... but they still probably wont let me adopt without a spouse
Then I need to get a high paying job..... but writers dont get paid a lot!
And they have to spend a load of time writing and thinking of what to write so I wont have much time to spend with my kids TT^TT
NNOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUWWWWWWWUUUUOOOOOOXXXXX
I AM YO GRANDFATHER IN LAW LUKE SKYWALKER!
Wow I'm hyper today......
Must I give up my dreams and pass it on to my children?......
I learned in an anime that even though if you give up your dreams...... your children are worth giving up your dreams for.....
Have you seen that anime as well? I'm not telling you which one though
But I dont really have techniques or skills for other jobs....
The only thing I can do well(sort of) is writing mediocre stories with very bad vocabulary.... and I can only write in korean......
You're lucky Elizabeth..... you can write well and you can play music, draw.... you can basically do anything well
I used to wish that I was good at art..... or music
Recently I've been listening to pianos and violins and I was sooooo jealous of those people who played my favorite songs so well on their instruments
I used to want to be a soccer player, lawyer, dentist, baker, cooker or painter but I realized I was so bad at all those things
Ahhh! Anyway I'll stop talking Elizabeth.... sory you had to read so much (if you did read it all)
By the way would you mind listening to this?
http://youtube.com/watch?v=3CAKPfPMKBo
I found out about a group that plays string instruments including violin, chello and viola
I like their music
Anyway see you again soon Elizabeth
HELLO ELI-CHAN.....MY TEST ARE FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYY OVER THANK GOODNESS! OHHHH...NOT JUST YET I HAVE A WEEK OF MORE TEST COMING UP...BUT WHO CARES HOW HAVE YOU BEEEEENNNNNNN IN SUCHHHHHHH A LONGGGGGG TIMEEEE!.....SORRY I AM NEVER HERE ANYMORE!
hey..been awhile ne eli-chan.Gomene.I'm moving forward now,again with no aim or direction but at least I'm maturing.I'm doing everything by myself now so yeah,its hard.If you need me find me at MSN:keisakuhajime@hotmail.com...see ya kiddo...
orry Elizabeth....
I couldnt drop by so often....
I'm going to be really really reallllllly busy until the end of this month
And even during vacation, I have to study for TOEFL exam, probably learn Japanese, do violin and prepare for next year's courses since I'm begining to take college subjects next year TT^TT
I'm really really really really sorry
Oh yeah and I did miss you a lot
Much more than all the stars in the universe!
You dont have to requite my love Elizabeth because even if you do, I will always love you voluntarily
merged: 05-16-2008 ~ 10:22pm
Elizabeth.......
Aaaahh!
I just dont know anymore
What exactly is going on..... I'm just so fed up with everything.....
I cant even think straight these days.......
I dont like myself for always making excuses.....
I truly do want to spend more time with you... but my mind is always so preocupied by something stupid....
Oh Elizabeth..... and I.... decided
I decided that I am going to japan for college
I'll probably be studying Japanese for a year or something in korea while serving in the military or something..... I dont know yet but I really do hope to go to Japan and my parents allowed it
Now I just need to study hard and somehow prepare the money.......
But for right now... I cant really get any inspiration to do anything......
Anyway..... how was your day Elizabeth?
hmm.... how long are you going to be 8 years old?
hey little girl
how r u?
it been a while....
be sure to drop by
take care
Sorry Elizabeth....
I'm still not myself....
lately I've turned a bit weird....
But I'll come back soon... I hope
Till then would you wait for me?
merged: 04-20-2008 ~ 09:00pm
Elizabeth... I am not staying long this time either
I've changed a lot while I was gone
I dont know why but Ive become even more apathetic for some reason
I am finding it hard to feel anything
Even when I watch a sad anime, I dont really feel sad
Or when I am suppose to be happy... I dont really feel anything
I feel that I have lost most of my sensibility for some reason
But... I'm trying my best to keep my feeling of love for you
So dont say silly things and please wait for me
Sorry Elizabeth
merged: 04-22-2008 ~ 09:26pm
Elizabeth sorry
I cannot stay long once again
Im trying to drop by at least for a short while though
Umm it's okay even if it's long Elizabeth
Although I may not reply to everything, I'll read it
I'm not trying that hard Elizabeth
Because you just make me love you even when I'm feeling down
I havent changed a lot but I suppose I am changing little by little
I am scared that this will last long.....
It's really.... scary and painful not being able to really stir up any emotion
I feel like I am somebody else... or I feel that I am not alive from time to time.....
Anyway.... I hope you are safe.... and feeling well
See you soon Elizabeth
merged: 04-28-2008 ~ 10:03pm
but you know elizabeth
I never felt that way ever before.... it was one of the most painful experience for me
Now I'm feeling better now
A lie cant become real. It'll stay a lie
And as I said before, there is a difference between saying something false and hiding information
God is perfect Elizabeth. We are the ones who are not
We always argue validity and rectitude but God already knows
And God already died for us
Once and for all
You are right on that there is no absolute by human standards
But there is a definite right and wrong
Why do you think people always argue about something if it's right or wrong?
Or why do you think people believe there is a supernatural being if it's nonsense?
Everyone does think alike. And because people cannot agree on one thing, there is an argument of right and wrong.
If a law was to be unanimously justified, every single human must testify it is right
Not everything in the world can be rationalized but concepts such as numbers and time are only sentimental
By saying it's 8pm, you can get the idea it's probably dark outside
Of course nature will not tell us what time it is but by setting some sort of standards, we can get a glimpse
Anyways I missed you Elizabeth
My computer was weird for a while so I could not log in
Well I would rather say it's more like an impulsive feeling than emotion.....
Hey no pinching! If you pinch me, you leave me with no other choice but to pinch you back
Oya oya Eli-chan is being panicky.Chill out ne.I'm trying to find time nowadays,hmmm don't know why I'm chasing it.Why did I bother about it anyway.....
Not being cute and nice anymore huh?Are you sure or are you having a fever*touch forehead*Waaah...you're ill.
You should rest once in awhile,don't care so much about the things around you.Live at your own pace.
Live the way you like it to be.
If others don't agree..then tsk they're idiots.
Eli-chan! long time no chat! xD
merged: 04-08-2008 ~ 01:58pm
I love yours =D
Its boring by the day.Nah don't kill yourself just yet my dear Eli-chan,something bound to happen sooner or later.As always.
Thats the cycle of basic human life.How you live through it is by your choice,your actions,your rule.
So Eli-chan do as you like,life is waiting.Have fun and smile.
merged: 04-06-2008 ~ 08:28pm
WAAAAH!My life is sooo packed that I never had the chance to talk to my dear little imoto.Alot of things happened,death of friends and huge project involving my band.
Eli-chan,hows your life?Still falling down again
Anyway,if you have any problems you can talk to me.
Life is short...especially when friends are first to go and leave.